Recently,

Life's been so down. I know Ian is trying hard to keep me up in the moods. He did good! Anyway, the results for my left ear hearing condition was out last monday. It's great that nothing bad is happening like tumours or anything of that sort. It was just poor recovery after swimming 11 years ago. Hence, my nerve just didn't heal properly. I just wish it did, I could've been serving the nation by now. Heh. On the other hand, I'm truly grateful that nothing worse could've happened. Plus, I've been so used to depending on my right ear to hear, it never occured to my mind about how hearing on both ears would feel like... Even though, now I'm starting to envy these people with perfect hearing, all is well:).

Everybody has their own flaws, mine is just a gigantic birthmark on my leg and partial hearing loss and I'm not afraid to let everyone know.

.....................................................Even a ghost's opinion is echoed..........


( misguided ghosts )

Hello,

Hmm. As bored as I am these days... I've been putting my baking skills into work. Well, I've been baking the whole week! It's definitely stress relieving.

Moreover, I have to deal with the stress of my troubled hearing this week. It was my mistake that I love swimming. I think I got my left ear, which is my good ear, infected. I've been hearing buzzing-ringing sounds and its making me have a headache. With that to handle, I can't even hear properly. People who spoke to me had to repeat at least twice before I can understand what they are saying when I couldn't see their lips. So, when you see me and want to talk to me these few days, don't cover your mouth. Let me see those lips for me to read. ok?

I wondered why this would happen to me, well, not to mention I've been stressed out due to my already permanent hearing loss on my right ear, now my left ear is infected. I'm feeling rather unlucky. :(. Last monday, with the MRI scan (BRAIN SCAN THINGY) done, now I have to wait another two weeks for the results in order to find out what's wrong with my right ear. 30th november is coming soon right? I hope its not bad news. Pray to God it's just normal nerve things like the doctor said.

I couldn't even hear my own surrounding sounds as usual nowadays. Listening to songs from paramore give me headaches, the bass line keeps vibrating so hard in my ears. The construction works all over my place is driving me nuts. And I hear two voices in my head when I speak. All these has been so demoralising. I don't even want to see people as I can't even focus on what they say when they speak to me.

Nonetheless, I cannot deny there are people out there going through some things worse than me. Like, permanent complete hearing loss. Hmm, So, it'll be ok. I guess.

Anyway, take a looksie at my beautiful cupcakes I made with some help from Delphina:)